Just for today: The winds of change

a glimpse into my perimenopausal world

Hello and thank you for reading my posts! I really appreciate you! Today I am going to be sharing with you a real life insight into my world as is right now, as this is what I feel I want to share.

You may know me as the artist, coach, musician, teacher, mother, muse, channel, meditation guide, mother of five. SÏRÏ. Or you may as well not know me! It doesn´t matter. Because today, I don´t want to be any of those. I just want to be me! Siri. And not SÏRÏ, the bigger version of me, being all the things listed above. Some days are like this. When the night was disrupted by having to get up to pee, and the bed felt too hot. The window was too shut and my significant other was sound asleep and couldn´t have done anything for me anyway. I feel totally and completely alone right now.

Today is a Monday, and I have found myself to use Mondays for recharging after the weekend, lately. How strange you might think, to want to recharge after the weekend! No, it is not, as I am in the phase of my life as a woman in perimenopause, where being social and constantly around others is taking its toll on me so I need myself back, and that is what I do on Mondays. That said, I do take care of and love myself during the weekend as well, if you were wondering. But it is in my complete solitude, that I love very much, that I find my complete recharge possible. And very much so in a day. Today. Monday.

I know this feeling of being alone is not the truth, physically speaking, as there are many women out there having the same or similar experiences in this phase of their lives. We all experience it differently, thats the thing, you see. We all are individuals , having our very own, personal and indivudally designed experiences, and that is the reason this feels so extremely lonely. It is only you yourself and your body that knows what is actually going on, and so therefore no one can tell you what you need and what is best for you, except you! The loneliness I am referring to, is the individual experience I am feeling very much these days, as my body needs for me to trust her and just tag along for her needs forrest, sleep, food, candy, tea, and consider exercise, rest, rest, rest, and aches and pains.

So what do I do to give in and trust, you ask?

Being an artist, a visual artist, musician, channel, meditation guide even, and teacher, I have loads of channels to pick from, and to tune into. So most days, I draw, paint, play the piano or other instruments, journal or go for long walks.

But, lately I haven´t been feeling like doing any of those at all, really. It was very strange to find myself not wanting to draw, paint or any other creative expression of mine. It has been like an enormous pause, an on many levels. A long breath out, and then in again. So I really find myself needing myself back now, totally and competely, today, on a Monday, just for today.

All by myself. Literally.

So today, on a Monday, I am finding myself alone, in my studio, or to be honest, I am in my living room, having lit the fire in the fireplace and making myself a cuppa, just listening to the crackles of the fire. Giving you a small glimpse into my world where the winds of change are ruling at the moment. I have tied myself to the mast!

This all brings me right back to the message I am here to give you; you are the artist of your life and your best is totally up to you! The message is very well used in my Drawing It Out program, that actually is NO drawing programme, but a personal journey back to the very best and optimal version of you, carrying your own inner peace!

I am giving everything to myself, these days. And so when you feel that you want to do the same, please, indulge yourself and do so! Just for today, just for yourself!

PS The Drawing It Out classes are open for registration when you want to invest in yourself, finding your inner peace again! I am here for you!!

Send me an email: siri@siriopli.com

Thank you for reading! More perimenopausal stuff to come next week.

There is so much love here for you!

SÏRÏ

Today´s watercolour is describing the confusion of the hormones raging in my body, prior to me knowing that was what this perimenopause was what was going on! What stands out in it for you? I really like the way the shapes above her head makes me dizzy and nauseous! hahahaha